Secret hidout I.I started the long dreay walk from my house onto my secret hide out. Yeah, I know, Its a little strange for a 17 year old to have a secret hide out. But something about it is so soothing, even thou thats where about 30 people died. Every now and then If I haven't gone there it practicaly calls to me, making me stop my homework, video games or listening to music and reading my manga, It wraps a rope around me and tugs and tugs until I start walking.
It takes about 30-45 minutes to get there, all depending on how active I feel like being. Today I'm already half way there and it's only been 15 minutes.
I can see the broken building now, all cement bricks, most of the building gone from the fire so long ago. The grass has grown back in a miniture forest like way. I love that part, I like to lay down and listen to my IPod or read, sometimes I just sit there in the quiet and let the stress of life fade away into the wind taking it away, then I take this little jornal I bought at a book store
When I cryWhen I cry,
I dont call my friends,
I dont post things online,
I don't cut,
I do cry untill I sleep.
I do look in the mirror,
and learn to love myself.
I should ask for a hug.
Im a VampireThey say a vampire is pure evil,
nothing that sparkles.
The dark side.
A vampire is cunsumed by the evil,
the hate and it molds them.
Torturing them for all eternity,
If that is it,
I a vampire.
I'm filled with pain.
So much pain,
so much hatrid,
so much of the darkside,
all in my core.
I'v let the darkness define me,
let it in and take over.
I dont want to lose who I am,
but I dont want this pain anymore.
It hurts me so much.
everyone goes throu pain,
none is greater,
and all in unique.
No one understand the pain i have burn put through,
and the hate I hold in my soul.
What if I left my pain?
What if I them turn into what I'm rebeling agianst?
What I hate the most.
So, must I keep the pain?
All I know is I dont want to hurt anymore...
Having fun in the day with people 'like me',
but then I lay in my bed and it slaps me in the cold face.
If I keep this pain,
I will remian a Vampire?
Not the vampire that teens fall in lo9ve with,
my own kind
Its a little bit Lonely.Thou, as it seems,
I have been forgotten.
I don't mind.
I have my toys, my games, even a puppy.
Oh..How I love my puppy.
But, not even puppy seems to remember me anymore,
strolling past me in the hall way, sniffing about.
We all use to play,
all the time.
But something happened,
and Mommy and Daddy got very sad.
I wonder what happened, but,
when I ask they don't reply,
even look at me.
The house has gone quiet dark.
I haven't seen Mommy and Daddy,
I haven't seen them for several days now.
And the lights won't come on,
I miss Mommy, And Daddy.
Even thou I don't think they knew I was here.
I wonder were they went.
The puppy went away to.
I've been left completely alone now.
But one day I was sitting in the living room,
Playing with one of the hundreds of toys.
When the front door opened.
A Man and a Woman walked in.
I didn't know them and I'm not allowed to talk to strangers.
So I stayed quiet, and stared.
They didn't look at me, just walked around,
running they're finger