What's the secret

I know there a secret,
something I don't know,
something they're keeping from me,
but what.

I've spent hours thinking,
sitting, pondering,
searching every inch of my brain,
but nothing.

Do we have to find out ourselves?
Or do they tell us?

Do we have to do something,
pass a test,
of strength,
will,
smarts?

What?

Is there even a secret?

Yes, Yes there is!
I can feel it!

Like a little ticking,
in the back of my head,
always faint,
but there,
just barely.

I'll find out what it is,
even if its just a lie to make us think,
I'' find out,
if it kills me.

If there's not one,
I'll make one,
but I know there's a secret,
just waiting to be found.